when did i get to be 40?

i can not believe i am going to be 40 in 25 days (according to the birthday calender on my facebook page). when did the happen? how??? 10 years ago at this time i was suicidal about turning 30. i freaked out, had a bad relationship and was depressed. i had never thought i would see 30. don't ask why i had that thought running in my head, i just did.
when you are in your 20's you never think about turning 30, 40 etc. all you think about is the "now". i thought about the "now" and thought i would be married or rich or something by the time i was 30. alas, that was not the case.
the last 10 years have been an amazing and strange journey. i lost family members, got married, caught chrons and ms, had surgery and became an aunt. funny thing on the way to 40, i grew up. i finally became an adult and took responsibility for my self. something i never thought would happen.
when i got sick in 2005, i did not think i would live to see 40. now as i get closer, i am actually am excited about it. most of all i am grateful for everything that i went through. it made me a better person, happier (well 95% of the time.) and i am alive.
ok and i will not deny, better looking. i see all my friends i went to high school with and all i can think is that "wow, we all look damn good for 40!"
here's to 40, it's actually going to be great!!